Last Tuesday, before our weekly district meeting, I was feeling really nervous about everything. If you know me, one of my weaknesses is that I often have fears and feel inadequate really easily. It's just who I am, and no I obviously don't like that about myself! After the loss of our investigators, I couldn't help but feel like part of that was my fault. In my eyes my companion is perfect! Yes, she has 14 months in the mission and many more experiences than I do, but still. I don't want to be the reason why we aren't teaching as well as we can be because of my lack of Spanish or experience. Hermana Perez is awesome and knows exactly what to say to help me overcome those awful negative thoughts that I have sometimes. (fetching satanas) However, the Lord always knows our situation. In our meeting, Hermano Acuna from our ward came to speak to everyone. Now he is one of the most spiritually in tune people that I have ever met. He shared really great advice about missionary work and about how big of a privilege our calling is. In the middle of his message, out of nowhere he stopped. He then had us switch companions and said that the Elders were going to give each of their new companions a blessing. Then the Zone Leaders would give each of the Hermanas a blessing. In that moment I was totally shocked and grateful. One of our Zone Leaders, Elder Nunez, gave me such an amazing blessing of strength. Without knowing anything that I had been feeling he blessed me with the ability to learn everything that I need to to be the missionary that Heavenly Father wants me to be; the gift of tongues, confidence in my abilities, that I won't have fear and many more things. After, I couldn't help but cry. Seriously, I have such a strong testimony that our Heavenly Father knows and loves us all individually. He is aware of our situations and is ALWAYS there to help us. I'm grateful for people in my life that listen to the spirit and act on it. I know that the Priesthood is the power of God and if they live worthy to have it, men in the church can bless lives in ways that they can't imagine.
This week I continued to see many, many miracles. We were able to find 2 really amazing families and many more people to teach. I feel so great about these people and I am excited to teach them! Every day I feel a little bit better about my lessons and talking with people in general. At times its really tough. The people here look at me and they usually think "Gringa who can't speak any Spanish." This week we met a lady who asked Hermana Perez to pray because I "can't" and every time I went to speak she said that she couldn't understand me. That was really hard to take. Hermana Perez told me that she doesn't understand when that happens because she can understand me perfectly fine! Oh well. I'm getting stronger with every little challenge.
We also had divisions this week! That meant that for the first time I was going to have to direct someone else in my area by myself. Luckily our area Sister Training Leader is Hermana Mungea! She is so great and I love her! I was scared to death the morning of divisions however, and I thought I was going to be sick. Looking back, how pathetic was I? Divisions went really well. I learned soooo much from Hermana Mungea but I also learned that I am capable of doing this when we have changes in the future. She gave me advice at the end of the night and told me that she can really see me being an excellent missionary. I was so happy and grateful for the amazing examples I have around me.
Really that's all I have for this week. I only have one more week in my training and that's really crazy for me! It feels like I just got here!
I love you all and pray for you everyday! Until next week!
Pura Vida!
Hermana Zerilli
This butterfly wouldnt leave us alone, hahaha!
Some of my favorite kiddos in my ward!
Christmas is everywhere in Costa Rica...
There was no Columbus here, LOL:)
It rained so much this week.
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